mood: worried.....very.....extreamly

crap..i cant even concentrate..like so many things and ya jia...i was my hands off the whole thing......i dont really care....and im so not going to waste my energy to judge and complain...now im just worrying abt myself...which is more then enf.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.....i sooooo freaking worried abt my accounting......shit shit shit......help....someone!!!!!!sigh.......and i think im worrying to much......crap....pple are like telling me that left right and centre...i so wasnt like this in singapore.....sigh....lets see steph then erm steph again then jia then steph then another person also.....sigh....but i cant help it!!!idont even know how to calculate the bloody thing....ahhhh!!!and im three weeks behind in accounting too....sigh....shit im so dead...........worried and the worse thing no one to message here...........its like i have nothing in common with any of them.....ahhhh.....its like we might joke around and everything but when it hits the imot matters.......its just not there...or at least and hopefully yet.......hopefully in one years time it wld be better....sigh.......

augh...its like.....close yet not close enf to say anything..................sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........ freaking worried..... and yes matthew 6 forgot wat verse...the last one....but thats like not relevant cos thats likeworrying abt stuff which hasnt happen and ya......this is wrried abt notknowing my work......sigh.......its like knowsome partsbut dont know others.....and ya......

today cldnt enjoy service so many tihng happened....sigh.......first kana stuck at the reception then some pplewho had to write in the card came late thensomeone missed the bus stop and i had to go pick her up withmichael who was driving itwasher first timeto church...okayokay...she didnt missthe stop i told herthe wrong stop number....sigh....but bus stop18 is outside the church just a diff route....opps.... :)

so sat doown for sermon sigh....missed praise and worship only had like30 secs of it........sob.......missed my fav part.....sighhhhhhh................

so worried.....

now if i cld tell someone else in ccm...and steph u arent counted cos u know the existanceof this little boring whiney bloggie....hahahhaha.......sighhhhhh......