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i tell u i have like two craxy people outside in my living area now doing their commercial law assignment...very scary leh....haha....but at the same time very comical...hahaha....

oh wow they just finished thier assignment.....lalala...

ccm today was very very good praise and worship although not up to stuff u cld tell that the spirit was there..okay maybe it was only me or something but yah....heez....

learnt about rebellion today or however u spell it.......so as usual im going to reflect....heh...

basically i think that in certain areas of my life ive been rebelling and i never realised it....but now yah i realised...
okie so badically rebellingthe first ever incident was todo with lucifer who is still burning in hell...but yes...
and whatcasuse rebellion?
well the first one is pride...pride makes u unteachable and un correctable and well God doesnt like prideful people and would rather humble people Gods pet hate is pride...heez...so yah....and pide would cause u to rebel as u think u deserve better or deserve it...
like for example u are a really really good at teaching preaching and god only knows whatelse....then an opening for an accoiate pastor position opens up in church and u really want that position but in the end the pastor givesit to someone else then like u arent happy about it and then you ask the pastor about it and demand that position(i guess thats how the examplewent...heez) then yah the pastor takes u off ur ministry as he sees u get really prideful and everything then u go like fine then im going to leave the church and who wants to follow me..then u take 1/3of the church members with u.....eez....church division from rebelling...so rebelling is bad...
and antoher example hopfully better to relate too and i hopeim correct...haha..the first example is wat was given during the lesson this example is mine and what the heck...its my reflection so it doesnt matter if its wrong and even if its wrong well u can tell me...but yes example...pride...well if u are pridefullwhen ur leaders tell u some stuff about urself well bad stuff about urself...ur reaction wld be what the....and u i dont know like just not accept it and try to correct it kind of thing and u that the whole world is agaisnt u and that u dont have that fault and then u go and say bad stuff to others about ur leaders and everything and cause a reellion ofsomesort.....heez...
okie next reason......it has to dealwith porximity and its erm oh yes jealousy andfault finding...yesyes...so yes jealousy and bitterness can cause rebellion and well porximtiy...anyway....yes....poximity to the peopleover you...like the cloer u get to them u see thier faults too and u are like spreading it round and everything like in the bible moses married outsdie the tribe or something and some people werebitching ?gossiping about it and okay okay not exactlythose words but yes...the effect is the same and god got really angry and erm caused something to happen cant remeber what...so yes....leaders are people too and they still have thier failings and everything ad so when u notice aleader or even one of the midlevelleaders incaregrp or something making a mistake please remeber that they are all humans and arent perfect and yesu guys i know u allarent perfect ad everything u dont need ot tell me like today was like the 3rd orfourth time ive heard it and yes i know u all arent perfect and when u guys make a mistake i understand but if it involvesme when u make that mistakewell erm good luck to u...
okie next reason was erm lets see.....worldliness....yupyup...cause rebellion...worldliness is the pirit ofthe world so yah if u have it in u then like u arent going to listen to ur leaders not to meniton God and well uarent going to read ur bible or pray and u wld just follow what the wolrd thinks u sld do...like for example....the wolrd tells u when u find boyfriend everything would be fine andhappy and u wld find ur happiness in ur bf or gf.....and so u go and find someone like and then the church tell u to not go out with the guy or girl and even god talks to u and tell u about it...hey anytihng is possible but becasue the woorld says that having a bf or gf is cool and what other nonse like oh yah ur life wld be complete and finding hppiness and whatnot u listen to the wolrd and rebell aginst the chch and may even leave church ad what not....but u see right the stuff and enjoyment u find int he wolrd is only for a short while and doesnt last for long...an basically u sld love God with all ur heart soul and mind and strength first and the rest will comewhen its the right time.....hopfully for me its not anytime in the near future heez....im perfectly content on sitting back and watching the shows we have and listing to oh who like who or who likes them orwho told who that he/she likes them or whatever and so on i mean its fun...haha..my enertainment its even more entertaining then watching tv...heh.....
okieokie nextand last point bitterness and erm anger....well the main cause of anger is pride and well....u know like sometimes we keep it all in us and let it built up and one day u decide u cant take it anymore and u just blow up and rebell....like rebell openly or cos u nkow that u wld get introuble for rebelling openly then u rebel covertly...well yah....
and oh yah there is legitimte authority given by God and there is illgitmate authrity which is outside what is given and godwill and well yah...rebelling is outside gods will and everything and int he KJV version its refered to as witchcraft and in the Niv version i think its refered to as deviation(or however u pell it) but one thing for sure is that rebellion causes devision.....

so yes that what i learnt during ccm....

now outside of ccm what iddi learn...i elarnt that ccm can never be perfect and to look at the bigger picture and that u dont need to tell everyone what u are doing cos people can see it for themselves and well it doesnt matter what u say...its the life choices that u make which wld make n impact on people and oh yah guys can only do one thing at a time and well we cant ofrce people todowhatthey dont want to do cos it wld become an obligation and well....yah thats it ithik....

wheeeeeeeee....now michelles mind has no random thought floating round and needing to get out and yes basicalyl my last few post are whtai actually think about just needed ot get it out so that it does not take up space in mybrain and clutter eveytihng up and so tha ti have more space for m work.....

and i tihkn right..okay maybe one last random thought....i was lookingroun ccm ad i realsied in order to find someone who is like on at least the same level i need to find someone who is in the same batch as me or almost the same but cannot be later..but yes another day another point....and ohyahistillneed to blog abt one mroe thing....heez...need tolay it to rest.....tomrrow..im going tosleep now....got dance prac tomorrow.. =)