hmmmm...well michelle crashed out yesterday again...but she finshed her torts i think........

anyway today is accoutning either way.....

and well michelle had shepharding lesson last night and she realsied something....

5 reasons why michelle is put off having a relationship
1. not ready -- i lwd make a very sucky gf...haha
2. not interested -- errrrrr...yah...hahaha
3. eddie would tell you to wait for 6 mths anyway -- so no point starting anything when u cant start anything in the first place and have to wait
4. CCM wld have a field day if i get attached (look at what happened last round with the rest) and if not ccm then at least stephie miin and elsa....wahha...
5. loving God is a full time job - with all your heart soul and mind and if like yo like someone that not going to happen..........

so yupyup.......hopefully ot anytime soon or in the near future like maybe two ears then come back and reveluate again...hahha...but hey like the versestephie has been holding on throughout the sememster we can make as much plans as we want to but if its not the exact same route or way or purpose or whatever god has planned for us he wld mess it up....lallala.......

and good morning...mysleeping and eating cycle is shit right now....crashed out at 2am in the morning woke up at around five am with a stomach which was making so much noise and a tummy ache then 5.30am caanot sleep force myself to sleep thikning okay wake up like at maybe 7 or 8 am have bekkie then start work but no what time i wake up i woke up at 11am inthe very early morning....ahhhhh..and i still want to sleep someomre....sighhhhhh....

5 reasons why michelle cannot do sunday school
1. she goes slightly crazy during the week
2. she can't sleep cos of it
3. it really is very hard on her and its really suffering
4. the kids are influencing her to act more like one ie more frequent throwing of tamtrums and more whining..
5. maybe when shes more in one piece and slightly more stable....

1 reason why michelle can do sunday school
1. cos its doing it for God.....

so yes sldi bargain with trang or sld i not.........to just do sunday school like one week only not two weeks straight each duty roster or every two duty roster.....ahhhhhhh.......dies...im so not functioning now but att he same time...God......doing it cos he wantsme to do it?thent hat raises the question does he want me to do it? but its like just another area of serving like ohp or doing lunch and even then no feeling ur urge to go and do it...but then again....after the whole thing i dont even want to see the kids or hang ot with them i have no more energy already..

going through it not over not under...through......