AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

what on earth is going on?!?!?!??!?!?!

sighness.......

okaywait not like i want to know....im better off not knowing....
getting really mixed singals and i have to sit down and sort out which are my own and which are from god....hmmm...italso cldbe due to the fact that i have no idea wha im asking for too...ie asking not clearly...hahaha....yah......sighnes.........this sucks

just had ccm.....dead as usual when igofor it today was just bad brain was really no functioning and well yah....but it wasgood in a sense that i didnt have to do anything...so yah......michelle is enjoying this little breakshe has right now....its not that she doesnt want to do it or anytinhg but u know sometimes u need to take a step back and just sit there and not think...heez....so obviously right now after ccm im sleepy and half dead...but still so yes reflections and i do believe i didnt do one last week so its okay cos todays was a continuation of last weeks....

so last week we learnt more ways of rebellion we learnt that stubborness can caue rebellion and socan distrust...against god todays one was on fear.......and well yah......okay basically i nkow this reason all to well and well yah....like fear would causeyou to miss out on alot of stuff and god blessing and for others to receive god blessing and well yah after that eddie did an alter call and it was wow....haha......but yes....this is bad like michelle needs tofigure out whats going on with her and fast if not u aregoing to get her crying almost every single day...this is sooo bad........sigh........need to sit down and think maybe do it tomorrow....hmmmmm......oh had fish and chips for dinner today finally sometihng other then hungry jacks......but...there always is a but i had hungry jacks for dinner and i tell u i was like this light bulb lah.....so crappy okay......but at the same time....haha...so sweetthe both of them....okay wait not sweet cute...hahahaha....okay lha okay lah.....looks like im okay with everything except for one more person (for this particular area) left have to deal with it....sigh.....i dont know what to do lah....but yes....god will make a way....its like ever since i let it go things have just started flowing better and even though there doesnt seem to be time its happening and communication lines are being opened...so yah....

and i realsied what some people say have been scaring me to bits cos like i never ever made myself to be like that and thats like the last thing i think i am and its scary.....hmmmso yah...and the funniest thing is that im trying not to play the game which everyone thinks i am so there is a problem there basically lookslike in order for it not to happen i odnt need to talk to anyone already....or at least that bunch....so i odnt get so bothered with it...smetimes i think im better off not going and finding out but like that isnt good and i need to get to know them better and everytihng so yah......

oh yah the brown specks are atually stars and well if ugo check out my blog html u wld notice i have two different mouse cursors on it the brown specs was the orginal mouse cursor ie it came wit the blog template the clock one is the one joe put in for me =) and the brown specs one would load first thn the clock one would load.....heehee