thoughts
so many thoughts
running through my head
thinking
linking
forming
realising
looking
observing
feeling
linking more
hoping it would happen
hoping it wouldn't
learning new things
which never occured to me
thinking of old things
which did
feelings are the worse
can't do anything about them
and can't force
to not feel that way
to stop feeling that way
can control it
but cant stop it
spending time apart
not knowing the other side
shoving it into a dark cupboard
hiding it
from the world
but most importantly
from myself
being ignorant of everything
drifting away
drifting to a place where they can't hurt me
where what they do can't affect me
its better
better for everyone
and better for me
for my sanity