we were suppose to do this exercise in ccm today

it was to write down on the piece of paper what is really troubling you

and i was thinking about it and i kinda realised.....

i havent been feeling anything towards anything lately

like exams.....my good fren tells me its like i dont have paper or sitting exam the next day at all
like after exams....no idea how the paper went
like when getting reuslts back....happy but ho hum..
like when thinking about accomodation....no reaction to it
like when thinking about issues...its so long standing and so i cannot do anything about it kind that i dont feel anytinhg towards it.........

and even when i say im worried about the results and if i can pass.....its like takes so much effort just to do it................and seem like im worried(which i am but....)

dont know

and a thought struck me during the teaching....very random thought which had no relaiton to trusting god and how its a choice and not wait for our feelings to be in the mood to trust god but we must make the choice (as i so happily found out the begainning of this semester) but yes hwere was i oh yes....random thoguh

its not that christians are rich money wise/materal wise...
its just that we can have all those if we want...but when there is a change of perspective those things arent important anymore....u cld buy that 100 dollar top/bottom or u cld use the money for the kingdom of god...
im pretty sure if we put all the money u urself put into the offering bag since god knows when...it wld come up to quite abit too
but when there is a change of perspective....earing heaps doesnt really matter if gods kingdom is at stake.....

hmmmmmmmmm.....................................