i ws sitting on my bed as usual thinking as usual to the point of not sleeping..and this though struck me.........i seem to have friends who have this tendency to protect me/shield me from the worse of it to the point of even not including me in things...dont know if its good or bad or not....hmmm...
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ans i was again sitting in my bed thinking...and i realised...im tired of chasing people trying when they themselves done even try...so for now...i wont try at all....until you prove to me otherwise...if that means i have no friends than so be it...i spent almost 20 years of my life with only one or two people at different stages of which im close to and im prefectly happy with it...and now i also gotGod...so my position has imporved dramatically in my favour.....

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exam today was....................................................sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......