what i have learnt form these past weeks
or at least some of them

1. life isnt just black and white there are shades of gray to it
2. its easy to handle the extreme, its the middle which is hard
3. sometimes there is no answer to a why
4. sometimes its better not knowing why
5. sometimes all you can do is to trust

and that i guess sums up where i am now....
not knowing what is going on
not having any answers
not understanding
but trusting with all my heart and mind......

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and im glad with the chocies i have made....
i could have made better ones
but with the state i am in now
i know it could have been worse.....

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