u know something i just realised sometihng...lolz

im scared
im freaking scared..
have an utter melt down kind of scared

but i dont want to face that scaredness (if there is even such a word)
i keep shoving it to one side not thinking about it not dealing with it.....
cos maybe im scared of why im feeling scared......(did that amke sense??)

heez

on another note
where is peer pressure when u need it?
i was standing in koorong for a very long time just trying to figure out what colour bible to buy....
why wasnt there anyone there to talk me into buying a colour.....
i was having a headache during and after the whoole process....sighhhhh

but int he end i got a new bible!!!yay!!!!small one.....=)

miin steph elsa quick come back!!!!im so lonely without you guys....
amanda is all the way on the other side....so far.....sob....