Friday, September 30, 2005
*.* Closing a chapter(1) *.*
Im not going to do this justice tonight but then again there really isnt any other better timeI right now am a mess of feelings thoughts and emotionsWell lets see….Today was the last time ccm is meeting up as one big groupAs of next week we are split up into our own small groupsAnd well I would be taking it reasonably wellExcept for one little factSomeone said what you are scared to lose the mostIs going to be the first thing you would loseAnd that I guess is what im sad aboutRationally I know whats going to happenWhy its happeningAnd even know its goodBut right nowIt doesn’t matterI don’t need to know im acceptedNeeded and not rejected or whateverCos I know imWhat I need now is to just go through the processCos the last few times some stuff happenI didn’t exactly follow the steps and some of it is still stuck inside me unable to come outCos there is no appropriate time for itSo hopefully everything would be out…….But thenEverything isn’t all bad and sadnessLosing some things means gaining othersAnd well I can see that prayers are being answeredPeople growingKnowing othersForging stronger bondsI just realized somethingI can see both sidesBut I need to go through the process of when you are losing some thingsIf not the chapter wouldn’t feel close and it would come back to hunt you one dayI needI need to be able to close this chapter properlyI need to sort it out slowly even though I know where to end up
I needed Jesus @ | 1:36 am |
