something is missing
but i dont know what
its like there
but yet not there
near enough for me to know its there
but far enough for it to be missing....
augh!!!
cannot concetrate because of it

and on a lighter more sane note

conversation going on in michelles head...

me:I DONT WANT TO STDUY
Me: no no no cannot muststudy must sutdy
me: no dont want...dun want to do
Me: STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!
me: dont want!!!!!!
AUGH!!!!!!!!!
DUN WAN!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

okay i tihnk i woudl fnction better if igive myself llittle treats like
oh after one hour i go and disturb elsa
then after half an hor i go and disturb miin
then after fifteen minutes i go and disturb stephie
then after five minutes.....

whahahahhahaha......

dont want dont want..........

something is not right
something is not right.....lalala

and like when i spend time with gos im like not there cos my brain is thinking of the moaunt of work i need to do and i end up having a panic attack and think like oh man i cld be doing mywork now instrad of doing this...augh!!!like a viscious cycle.... i want to do qt but at the same time my brain is elsewhere thikning about it but if like that the more you have to seek god and the mroe i want to do it but then my brain is thinking about it.....DAMN DAMN DAMN.......I TIHNK IM HAVING A MELT DOWN....

and erm dottie im okay...stress? what stress seriously ask miin...hahhaha

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