sniff sniff...im sosadi just got kicked out of my roomies room cos shes blogging....okay tt sentacne made no sense but yes...

oh yes....what i learnt yesterday at ccm....

God gave man authority but cos of one person sins we lost it and though one person hes returning the authority to us. in order to lead u need authority. and the authority comes from the church and from god. we need to obey to the church and to God to have authority. if the church and god cant trust us they cat give us authority.
and we sldbe happy when we are facing trials cos the we can exercise our faith and grow.(okay tts at least what eddie keeps telling ben who keeps telling me...i tell u miniture eddies runing all around....during convention they were like okay take out bible and try to find verses to tell me cos tts what eddies does....heez...and oh yah the other so useful advice they love to give me is.... pray....lolz...)

and this year so far ive learnt that having faith and beliving is important.....without it nothing can happen....and well basically happiness can only be found in God and through him....anywhere else and its all in the wrong place...everything i step out into the world ie not in my cusion environment, its so clear to me that they are looking for it in all the wrong places (friends boyfriends girlfriends tv food whatever) and they arent really happy...or are only happy for a short time.....like last year and this year....a totally different person..last year was like looking for it in all the wrong places but when taking the step back to God a total transformation so much happier and its inner happiness on just for a while oh yah happy kind of thing....and i realsied something im at my happiest when im serving him....no matter how much i complain about it yah....but then there is a point when its too much to handle and i must learn to know when...cos then it starts becoming a chore and i burn out....yah.....so having faith like a child...and happiness can only come from him and him alone......but yah humans are a curious lot...cant force it down thier throats....wont accept it they have to figure it out for themselves.....

wonder what else i wld learn.....i seem to be more lucid now...but to tell u the truth i have no idea what im going on about im just typing whatever comes to mind and i know God loves me alot...its a fact and sometimes i feel like im bursting with love for him....okay i think this post is almost seriously deep down in my heart...or from ym mind at least...hahaha......

oh yes.......thank you miin!!!!!!!love u loads!!!!and yah we need to do serious catching up...been drifting.....and the whole world thinks we spend too much time together.....now i just need to get off my butt and post a post card/letter to dottie so tt she knows i havent forgotten about her...dont worry dot i havent forgotten abt u in melbourn...love u loads too....im just being lazy....lolz....hahaha....i tihnk im going on a high again

and looks like i need devine intervention to get an idea...no one is helping me.....urk...like yah lah....i would get like something to write on...then.....aiyo...i dont know......

i like soup...lalalala......