ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........

just leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i want to study......

sighz...............

i like want to give time to everyone so that i canhave a dencent conversation with them but everyone is like wanting me to do something for them all at the same time or like one after another so i cant evenhave a dencent conversation with anyone.....augh...i cant even blog one post without being distracted...sigh...and my status on msn is like busy and studying....cant pple read?!?!?!?okay sometimes im ont but yes....i tihkn im going to block everyone on my msn......sigh....but yes.....and it doesnt help that i cant seem to tell them no or that i dare not tell them no or that they dont take no for an answer or that im scsred that they wld get pissed at me r.....sigh.......im like streached in differnet directions......crap......

i miss the times when i cld do wateva i wanted to do cos
1.pple tot that i didnt know anytihng
2. i had like only like 3 friends at the most cos
a.i was anti social.....steph it all ur fault....
b. i was in one corner.....linked back to being anti
c.unfriendly
d.quiet
e.....................
3.everyone left me alone.....and no one bothered with me...

u know smething the best thing u all can do now is to just leave me alone.......and sitdown and have a dencent conversation with me when no one is around.....i think the conversations im having in between my lessons are like the only thing keeping me going......sigh......

like onw to call pple is so bloody expensive....
and like steph is steph cant talk to her....
and like ccm...erm.......okay.....who actually cares....sigh.......u go for meeting...say hi....mingle around listen to eddie go home go to church say hi listen to the sermon and go home......and chatting on msn is like not there.....how sincre a conversation can u get with that......and like no emtions.....sigh...i think im going crazy....

better do my work...

oh steph made a very interesting comment today...im not as inncoent as i look,....hahhhahaha....wat do u tihnk.....

dont worry im not stressed....im not goingto do anytihng stupid..........im not wateva u are thinking im feeling right now

i feel this sense of calm and peace...dont ask me why...but yes.......calm and peace cos of detachedment cos if im attached or wateva....i wld just break cos so many things is going on at once and im not used to it and i need to distanc emyself from it if not i wld be overwhelmed????mmm...not sure.....jia is better atcoming up with this sort of crap....hahaha

but yes im feeling very peacful right now.....so im okay im okay.......and if u odnt tihnk so...just leave ur comments to urself.....i dont really want to know......cos it just pisses me off cos i already said im okay....wat the else d u want me to say........oh yay life is so fun and yay im enjoying myself?????wateva okay wateva.....


oh the weather is sooo nice now a days.......beautiful weather...........