not wanted

sigh...lim really blind....i din even notice them in the library.......i walked in and out like a million times....welll i guess this is just another classic example of pple seeing onli wat they want to see........cos i tot they where in the void cause she wanted to study there......so i obviously dont expect to see them in the library....so obviously wont notice...haha...im blind......or either that i just looked rite through them like wat i did during lunch...i tihkn im suffering from a lack of sleep...jia sorry for looking throungh u during lunch.....sigh.......

anyway i think rite frankkly speaking that even if i did see them...i prob wldnt have gone up to say hi....cause i felt that i wasnt wanted there...even if u din feel it i definatly felt it....oh how i know......just watch her reaction......when she realised that i brought all my tys to school today she din ask me y.....or even tease me abt it instead she asked jia...i cld tell that she was a bit worried thati wld be staying back to study and that i found out abt them staying back to study....like i was i suppose to know???i planned to stay back to study with other pple......wateva.......i cant remeber the sequenceing but she told steph that she was staying back to study i think....ya...so wateva...i obviously din say anything cause i know when im not wanted......rite....so when i eventually asked her if she was staying back to study....she was like dont know...when she obviously planned it already......y din she just say yes?cld it be cause she was worried that i wld have invited myself to study with her???then i realised that she is studying with jia...okay....wateva........i had my own plans......when it became super obvious that she was plannnign to stay back to study and i asked her a simple question like where are u going to study...all her ans where i dont know....not even a single maybe.....obviously not wanted......and besides that she kinda asked steph if she wanted to stay back and study...as in she was like why dont u stay back and study instead of going home...or something to that effect........wateva dont really care.......and all thorugh lunch and after i felt that i wasnt wanted by her like im intruding on sometihng....so fine........i go up to the library myself and leave her in her own little world which she thinks im intruding in......and if u tot it was strange that i was going to the lib to study and hwy i wasnt following u pple....it was becasue of the feeling i got from her.......so forget it.........so ya.....even if i had seen/noticed u pple i wldnt have went up to say said hi i wld have just waved or smiled...cause i know im not wanted and i dont like the feeling of being in the way........so why did i see u pple in the void and went to say hi....well for one thing i was expecting to see u in the void.....and i went to say hi cause i was in a much better mood then ie was feeling more tolerant to the feelings of being not wanted....so i decided to try my luck to see if she was still feeling that way...haha

and im sorry if i read all the singnals wrongly but thats just the way i saw it...so even if she din realise that she was sending out the singnals she was even if she din realise it and tot she was sendign out another kind

oh yes.....the water supply situation....my maid read the tihng wrongly...haha...it turns out that any day in the next five mths the water supply wld be cut off casue they r relaying the pipes...hahha....so its not for the next five dayas....hahaha....

wait i just realised....which corner?i still have no idea where u pple where sitting...hahaha.....