sheesh.....brothers suck.......guess wat happen today...........my frineds bro who is also in ac br went up to my bro and asked him how is ur sister....okay i think its like how out of point but nvm...haha......they arent even friends...haha....welll my stupid bro replied dont know dont care.....and my friends bro replied thats the way man........sigh....cmi.........hahha.....well.....just realised i still dont understand prob....sigh......went for maths tuition and had no idea wat was going on ....im so dead....someone help........sigh...better go study for terms.....its next week....gulp........

oh yes steph congrats for passing the chinese exam.....haha.....

i think i sld just keep quiet from now on and dont say anything until im spoken to.........that way my life wld be so much better...........i dont get snapped at for no rhyme or reason.............if i get snapped at for asking stupid questions fine and fiar...but if i asked a sensible question and i get snapped at..............................and so wat if u emberrass urself in front of the class....why r u so scared??u laugh at others in the class when they do stupid things.......so why cant others laugh at u???if u dont want them to laugh at u why dont u not laugh at them first?but u see rite unfortunatly u cant becasue u love to make others feel bad abt themselves or make them feel left out or something so that u wld feel in power......so u laugh...but when others do it back to u....u dont like it and get angry.......but when others get angry when u do it to them they r being unreasonable or something.....and u expect pple to gladly u lend u stuff but most of the time when someone ask u to leand them stuff u give a black face.......u my dear....basically make use of pple....even if ur close friends dont notice others will......and i seem to be picking up some of ur bad hadbits........which needless to say is bad...........

i just realised something.......my close frineds are those pple who love to hurl insults at me or bang me....and i hurl it back at them but always lose...hahah......its like i have this perverse notion or idea that those who are close to u wld insult u and everything case they arent being fake an deverything...u konw when u r being fake or are around pple u dont really know....u r like really super nice and everything......so i guess thats says alot..........

okay...i better go and study now.....i feel so much better now....now if onli the right pple read this entry...life wld prob be close to perfect...hahaha...okay im goin insane again.....better go and do my work.....