hmmm its been quite some time since ive updated.. well by now no one sld be reading this almost half dead blog...haha... oh wells.. not sure why but i seem to stil be randomly updating this with vauge comments. lolz.. maybe i sld type out a decent blogpost.. one day. hahaha...

well one thigns for certain...things have changed, people have changed and moved in different directions. i don't know why...actually i do.. and it did happen.... it wasn't want of me trying not to let it happen but it takes two. so i guess circumstances just made it easier...or harder... and having different prioerties made it harder...do i like where i am now? no i don't.i can go and blame others but i guess i am making do with what i have to make lemon aid out of lemons..whcih at the same time is taking me in a different direction from people i normally wld love to go in the same direction with. i have no diea wher eim going with this.but yah... i think i am going to lose it soon if i don't hang out with them. God!!!!!! aughhhh.....................................