two conversations along the same lines with two different people on two different days

did i mention god really knows the most direct wayS he can get to me?

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its not that i dont care
its that i dont realise
i expect you to tell me
its cos u dont allow me to do it when i want to
so im not used to it
its weird and strange
i have no idea how to express it
with others its easy
and they accept it
and cos i cant let it when i want to
i overcompensate when i do it to others...
but yes
i dont care
whatever happens happens
no use getting upset over it
no use worrying about it
just keep praying about it
and giving it to god
letting it go

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thanks jia for sharing with me the videos
it helped me somehow to link something in me
after watching it
something in me went click
i remember
i finally remember
everything youve done for me
everything you brought me through
everytime youve been there
how to trust you
how to let go
how to rely on you
how to love you...

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something is smelling very very fishey in the air and i dont like the smell of it

my good fren is scheming......and tt usually means trouble.....heez

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now what i need the most now is rest and sleep and after for me to just have some me time to just reflect and sort out everything that has been going on and the thing i need to do...

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