STOMACH CRAMPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH........

THE MOST ABSOLUTE WORSE TIME TO EVER HAPPEN

when i have to write 700 more words with an essay due the next day....

oh God help me......pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...............

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my housemate says i can only blog one post so im combinging everything and when i finh my essay i wld hit the post button so the time now is 8.50pm.........

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does anyone know mroe words other than thus however therefore hence but???????my vocab sucks.....haha

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i refuse to let it sink in
i refuse to think about it
i refuse to cos i have an essay to write.....

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time:9.21pm
number of words: 538 words
number of words left: uhhh....1000 - 538?462?

wld u rather over shot when u wirte finihs ur essay and need to cut words or wld u be lacking of words and therefore need ot add in points?

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you nkow something its good im not close that why i dont care what they think and i can do whatever i need to do and not care about thier opionions and be limited by what they think.....i guess i need to overcome what others think of me i seem to have this problem of needing to live up to a certain expecataiton ie u view me this way therefore in front of you im this way.no idea why.........am i really ever myself with anyone?

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i think here is love is one of the most tiring songs to sing....ever.......or maybe im just unfit...haha...by the time i get to he end of the song im so tired of singing.
9.59pm
and i think my essay is going to be very screwed up.....my point are everywhere....its going to sound very disjointed....
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great its like i write one para do other things for the next half hour than comeback write another para for five minutes and go do something else.....sighhhhhhhhh.....

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To me the reason why we lift our hands =)

And with our hands lifted high
We will worship and sing
And with our hands lifted high
We come before you rejoicing
With our hands lifted high to the sky
And the world wonders why
We'll just tell them we're loving our King

-We will worship- -max lucado-

The reason why we praise Him
Thats why we praise Him
Thats why we sing
Thats why we offer him oureverything
Thats why we bow down and worship this king
Cos he gave his everything
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arrrhhhhhhh....im stuck 300 more words and according to my good friend im not super coherant in my essay...im going to cry soon... i can't even make sense of whats going on IN me dont even talk about what is around me and i have to be coherant in the essay...my mind is a mess and tangle...

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purpose of worship is not to change god
purpose of worship is to change the worshipper

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12.37........300 more words.......god please pleae give me the wisdom and the ability to be coherant to write the last 300 words.....

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right now i cant tell how how almost eternally grateful i am...yes almost but not quiet....to be sitting at home with a lappie and not at the resource centre......i wld have just died totally...can u imagine being cold, having stocmach cramps,being in pain(okat those two things are one and the same),pushing urself to think coherantly,pushing everything else under the already lumpy carpet,streaching urself and reaching ur limit and feeling like u are going to breakdown soon, having a panic attack, feeling of puking,unable to do anytihng cos of the panic,no one around you to calm you down,only person who is there is god who sld be more than enf for you but cos you are so screwed up and god still have issues for you to deal with regarding that that you wont survive with just god for now...but in a way ure still relying on gods strength.......

whyohwhy cant this be the 300 words i need to write......1.13am....due 2am

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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....789 words.....sob.....1.56am

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can i just heck it pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................

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wld 100 words for a conclusion possible?sobz....most ot msot 50 i think ...hoping i wld hit 900 even.....10%limit either way i still got the horrendous job of referencing.....cry....

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i think my taste buds abit gone......not drinking enough water also.....

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884 words 4.01am....kill me seirously....
and my essay structure is in a mess i need to come up with a conclustion too.....so not going to hit the 100 word limit.....hopfully conclusion wld be about 20 words long....still got referencing to do....sighhh

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think im going to sleep now....wake up early early and do again....like erm7am?hopfully.....its due at 2pm....pray i dont have a nervous breakdown...
4.43.....
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