sigh....its 1.20am adelaide time and 11.50pm singapore time....and im sleepy....

but why am i still up writing crappy posts like this one......

and well i realised no matter how hard you try no matter how much you do....if the person doesnt want to see it the person won't see it

if the person is not interested the person is not interested

i mean i tired my best already
but its like you werent responsive in the first place

you know something i realised after talking to someone(dont worry not miin)
i realsied that you guys care only about your own life...
if i asked you whats going on in anyone elses which doesnt directly affect you
you wont know and you won't care/bother
you're too involved in your own lives to see whats going on around you
i dont know if that me percieving something as a truth and stating it as a fact
but yah...tts what i see and so tts what i say
although ive got to stop it...hmmmm....

and well i tired my best and ive found out its taking alot of my time and effort which frankly speaking cld been put to moreporductive use...
and its not only the rest/outsiders we got to have it with
its also within the group that we need it first
cos what is there to get them into when it doesnt exist at all in the first bloody place
and dont you tihnk we are sadly lacking in that dept
cos if we are then the rest won't be a problem
cos when something is done there wld be support
not a one man show where
one person does everything no one supporting and no one turns up

unity?what unity?
you mean it existed in the first place?
and if it doesnt exist in the first place
then what the hheck are we doing trying to reach out to those so called 'left outs'?
when we don't even have anything to offer them in the first place..
so why dont u look at yourself and tihkn off all the offerswhich cld havebuilt up unity youve turned down first beofre you say anything
it cld be form aksing out for lunch
to just talking to people
to peoplevisting your home
to you visitng others
to you msging them
confinding in them and not just a selected few

seeriously so wat if i am/was or whatever suppose to be up and coming whatever...
ive been trying from..bloody heck..the word go

ifyou want to know something...it has imporved like alotsever since then
its really now up to not you not me
but the old timers to formsomething first
before we can actually do anything
i mean deriding peoplesefforts cos its not what we consider usual isnt going to help
when you werent helping in the first place........

i dont know...

stupid long rambly post......

watsemyenergy and time only.....grrrrrrr......sleep...

dont care....im not goignt o even think about this until maybe next mid sem break........

till then im just going to just try to survive the best i can.....

and if that incls keeping myself sane then so be it...