i realise one thing.......people do werid stuff to keep them sane....and its the keeping them sane part which doesnt make it weird at least for others...for me its a totallly diff story......eg.....write one whole long post and then del itorpart of it....insane???but not really....cos its to keep ur sanity and its like u need somewhere to vent it all out..but since too msny pple read the blog cant post it since its too sensitive.......eg.......refusing to think back to when the news broke or refusing to even remember it...sounds childish??insane cos wats so hard abt it???but it isnt......its to keep the person as sane as possible......eg.......feeling really really happy then having others make u feel really really angry and sad and in the end of it all trying to stop thinking about the whole day at all and pretending its all a dream......sounds insane cos u need to meet the problem stright on????well not really cos its sometimes needed to keep ur sanity.....crying in the middle of someplace.......insane????yes all those strange stuff we do which seems strange to others....its really to keep us sane in this insane world.....a kind of structure a kind of outlet...anything...

wateva...................