and now u r prob wondering y i din say this that day well..........if i had said this that day......alll of u wld have just given me that black faces of urs and i wld end up fighing with steph marie and jia....one of u wld throw a tantrum....and prob say sometyihng like fine we will go and change the names now okay.........and all of u pple would prob miss the point i was trying to make........which was that i dont really care if i was going or not but that i said yes before steph said yes who actually said no in the first place...........and i was so angry that i was in a daze and i only fully registered one question which made me come to this realization.......if u want to know how angry i was go and ask aidi.....she was there ot witness it......although i dont think she realised...hahaha.....

2.if it wasnt for jia saying will the two of u stop crying....i wld have not been able to pull myself together........i dont know why that got through my daze but it did......and managed to pull myself together........okay i cried not because he screamed at me....that was only one factor....it was due to other things since last week...ranging from....my mum screaming at me to..............................to....................(fill in the blanks with anything u want to......i dont really care...........only one person knows the correct ans and thats enough)this was wat happened.......i almost broke down twice when we where standing outside the lab and when we where sitting behind..........but i managed to not cry.......however when we went to the toliet i started tearing in the cublicle....that was near my breaking point...but when a came out and saw maire crying.....i was like WTH.....and i just cried.......